Many of you know that I am the mom of a special needs child. Our son, age 15, has been diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, ADHD, dyslexia, dysgraphia, specific auditory processing disorder, depression, stuttering, bilateral hearing impairment, and anxiety. I won't go into all of the specifics of the years of struggling, ear surgeries, allergy appointments, hundreds of thousands of dollars in medical bills, numerous specialists, IEP meetings, heartache, and setbacks. But I will say, that because we've always advocated for our son, we've never been a popular family whether in our own neighborhood, the school districts, or in a local restaurant. It's been an uphill battle in every aspect of our lives.
3 years ago, my DH had the opportunity to move the family from Ohio to PA for a job opportunity. Knowing that PA had much better services (or at least services covered by insurance - therefore services we could obtain), I was excited. I was nervous to say the least. Let's face it, when your child has as many specialists and issues as our child does, not many people are jumping to include your family in activities. So, leaving our family behind in OH was definitely hard because they were our safe place, a place of acceptance.
Then we moved. Our son immediately got 250% better accommodations, services, and treatment. He was placed in a school for bright children with disabilities. For the first time in his entire life, he made not only 1 friend, but FRIENDS. I have to admit it was lonely for me when we moved here, however. I went from working fulltime to being a SAHM, which incidentally, I love! But I didn't have adult interaction every day. It was only through knitting that I made friends, that I found a community. And although I have been out of the loop of my local knitting community for the past year due to some unavoidable circumstances, I look forward to getting back into the community this fall when my littlest peanut starts school fulltime.
This week was a challenging week for us. As moms of special needs children understand, there are good weeks and not so good weeks. There are days that are very challenging. And this week, we had a challenging week. Not only was it challenging, but combine that with feeling under the weather and ugh! I missed breakfast with my bud. I didn't end up getting together this weekend with another knitting bud. And that was disappointing.
So what did I do? I put on my headphones and listened to knitting podcasts while knitting away. Knitting has been a constant safe haven for me. See, knitting for me is not only a hobby, but a sense of self-expression, a calming, centering activity, and my connection to others. I'm so thankful to have it in my life. Even my children now knit and crochet. And they love it (not nearly as much as I do though)!
Okay, I'm rambling. This is definitely the product of a crazy week! All I can say is.. Thank God for Knitting!