Most of my poor eating habits have stemmed from two main issues: 1.) The constant stress of having a special needs child. Those without special needs children will never understand how heartbreaking, stressful, and exhausting it is to live special needs 24/7. (Of course, with the tremendous challenges we face, come great rewards and an exceptional child whom we love more than life itself!) I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or any other self-destructive, self-medicating behaviors. EXCEPT eating. I can't explain it, but Twinkies are soothing when you can't verbally vent your frustration and you don't want to hurt anyone. So I eat, feel better, and don't hurt other people. -Especially my son. I can't tell him how hard it is to be his mommy. That would be unnecessary and cruel. He doesn't need to hear it. His life is tough enough without dealing with my problems. -AND- 2.) The vigors of being a mom, wife, and until recently, fulltime employee. It was cheaper and easier to throw prepackaged foods into the oven and serve. Now that I am a SAHM, I have found that I enjoy cooking and preparing dinners from scratch -so that won't be an obstacle anymore. However, it is STILL cheaper to buy unhealthy foods than healthier ones. Drat! So, time for more constructive ways to vent. I have joined 2 knitting groups. I have vowed to pick up the needles every time I am frustrated or upset. And I have vowed to put DOWN the Twinkies.
Oh and I just have to say what a terrific, supportive hubby I have. When I told him I wanted to re-join WW and start on an exercise program, the first thing he said is, "Don't do it for me. I think you're beautiful just how you are." Of course he's a bit biased - but God do I love him for it!